Recently my boyfriend wrote the following poem:
I am unsure
if the greater torment
is the feeling of emptiness
at being dismissed for all
which comprises who I am,
Or the feeling
as if I am both suffocating alone in space
and being crushed
under the infinite weightlessness
of everything I am not.
These words resonated with me, as someone that often feels defined by my failures. Often we feel, as my coworker put it, that “wherever we are we are in the wrong place.” Whatever we are we have become the wrong thing. However we live, we are doing it the wrong way. Our deepest insecurities, our greatest fears feel played out on a projector screen for all the world to see. Our identity, who we are and who we aren’t, everything we have strove to become and all that we have yet to reach, often feels scrutinized by everyone from our closest friends to the person checking out in line behind us. Yet so often, we fail to realize that they feel as scrutinized by us.
What would our world look like if we allowed ourselves to embrace our own identity, to love ourself fearlessly and with full resolve. How can you take the first step toward self-acceptance today? How can you give that acceptance to others.