When I first saw the background to my page, I was upset. I had found this beautiful picture of stained glass windows with figures of the faith painted in exceptional detail, but when I opened up my page, instead it appeared I was looking at the First Church of Tetris. I began searching for another picture, frustrated that this one would go to waste. Then I started thinking. Isn’t this the experience so many of us have had with faith?
You see a beautiful picture with the light shining through, illuminating it to reveal the pure enlightenment contained within. Just when you fully appreciate its value, suddenly you are staring at images that form no coherent scene, that do not speak to you beyond anything that is trivial or archaic. Where you once saw beauty, now it is distorted with no resemblance to the masterpiece it once portrayed.
This was my experience with faith and I have heard it echoed in the stories of others. The loss of what one held so sacred, so certain, so clear to something so murky, so questionable brings with it great grief. Often those enduring this loss have done so in great pain brought by the hands of those they once thought would hold their arms in the battle when they no longer had the strength to go on. Instead they feel shot in the back, left to bleed alone.
Maybe you, like me, are staring at a pixelated faith, trying to see the greater picture, trying to decide if you can see anything. Maybe you have been hurt. Maybe that grief still walks with you day to day.
I want to encourage you, that just like my background, I believe this is a distortion of the real thing. The masterpiece still remains, yet it cannot fit on this page. Its beauty has not been changed, but rather our view of it, by those that tried to fit it down to size.
So I ask you, what beauty was it that spoke to you? What distortions have pushed you away? But most importantly, what is the one step you can take on your journey of healing today?